Some changes

2026, July 19

I had removed the Esotericism/Occultism page and I'm not bringing it back. However, I still really like this cartomancy thing and I'm going to add the Lenormand and Tarot pages separately. As for Astrology, I don't think I'll bring it back. I've seen better results with cartomancy than with astrology. And regarding spirituality, consider me an atheist. About Occultism, I've been practicing some things from other areas and I'm seeing a little more result, so I'll keep testing to see how far I can go.

I removed some other pages from the site because they don't reflect who I am. I was trying to do what everyone else on the retro web does, but that doesn't fit my site's identity or me, so I removed them.

After seeing Strawberry's beautiful page, I might steal their color scheme and make a pink theme for this site.

I woke up today with several cuts all over my body and I have no idea what happened. I sleep alone with my door locked. O_O

A glimmer of hope for humanity

2026, July 16

For a while now, I've been finding these movie """analysis""" channels a real drag because it's just someone telling the whole story of the film and making silly jokes throughout the video. There's no ANALYSIS whatsoever, no criticism, no interpretation, no development, it's just someone TELLING the story and making jokes. And apart from one or two channels, all these "analysis" channels are like that. And it's not just a problem in Brazil, the gringos are all the same.

At first, I thought I was the only one who thought this way, but for the past few months I've seen many people commenting on the exactly same thing. And I'm glad that humanity is realizing how lazy these channels are.

I believe there's a lack of academic knowledge to conduct a true analysis; it's clear these people aren't very intellectually deep. Furthermore, there's the problem that people like to consume superficial content devoid of meaning.

Teenager and other things

2026, July 10

I want to leave a reflection here since I removed my blog and didn't make a proper music page in which I could do this.

In the 2000s, a lot of strange things happened that nowadays would never be tolerated. The people who committed those acts would be completely torn apart. And rightly so. However, I'm not condemning the past, just looking back with a mature perplexity.

I remember when KLB appeared in the 2000s and the single Every Ten Words [1] stuck in my head to the point that I pestered my parents to buy the CD so I could listen to that song repeatedly. Back then there was no Spotify, no internet.

I, at around 11–12 years old, loved this song and saw absolutely nothing wrong with it. As an adult, I decided to listen to it again and pay attention to the lyrics. And lo and behold, we can say that we, Brazilians, have a stalker song that can compete toe-to-toe with Every Breath You Take by The Police.

Here is the wonderful lyrics that would never happen nowadays:

It's been so long
That I've been following you
I know step by step
Every one of your paths

I know the time you wake up
And the time you go to sleep
I know everything about you
And you know nothing about me

I managed to get
Your phone number
And I called you but I didn't want to
Say my name

I was afraid and when I heard your voice
I hung up right away
And I confess,
I lacked the courage to say

Out of every ten words I say
Eleven is you
Every face I look at
In all of them I see you

And for those who hate Pagode, That So-Called Freedom [2] by Só Pra Contrariar is actually quite poetic. No irony intended. (the beauty of the lyrics will probably be lost on translation, but anyway...)

What am I gonna do with that so-called freedom
If I'm lonely thinking about you
I never imagined missing you so much
My heart doesn't know how to forget you

I went astray, I made a mistake
I traded the one I loved for an illusion
But we learn, life is a school
That's not how a great love story ends

I wanna hug you, I wanna kiss you
I desire you day and night
I want to tie me up to you
You are everything I ever wanted

What am I gonna do with this evening
Everywhere I look I remember you
I don't know if I stay or move to another city
Honestly, honey, I don't know what to do

I went astray, I made a mistake
I thought it would be better to sing another song
But we learn, life is a school
I trade freedom for your forgiveness

Unfortunately, we don't have the atrocities of the past anymore, but we also don't have the poetry of the past anymore. One thing improves, another gets worse.

I'll finish it next year

2026, July 02

The Vampire The Masquerade pendants I bought on AliExpress have arrived!!

I also bought a set of rose pendants to make a Toreador bracelet, but I won't use them all because only some of them look like their logo.

The silver ones on my fingers are the ones I will use.

I also bought a set of rings just because ONE piece looked like the Tzimisce ouroboros.

As the two ends are thick, there's no danger of falling off the thread. I'll tie it close to the head.

Last month, I found a single seller on Shopee who was selling only the tragedy mask pendant and only had 3 in stock. I bought all 3 and was shocked when they arrived. It was a pack with 2! In other words, I ended up with 6 tragedy mask pendants!

So many Nosferatu bracelets!

There's an anarchist pendant on AliExpress that only one seller has. It's much more expensive than the others; I'm gonna try to buy just one this month. It's exactly the Brujah logo.

So now I have pendants to make bracelets of:

• VTM
• Nosferatu
• Toreador
• Tzimisce

Next month I might get that Brujah pendant.

Shopee has maaaaany crown pendants that are exactly like the Lasombra logo.

Ah! And there are also the Malkavian mirrors!

I'll buy the ones that are running out or are very difficult to find first. There are plenty of Malkav and Lasombra ones.

The ones missing will be the Ventrue (that scepter isn't anywhere to be found), Gangrel (it's very difficult to find a wolf that looks similar), and Tremere (I might use just a triangle).

Furthermore, there's also most of the materials left to buy. Threads, beads, letters, spacers, etc...

I'm buying them little by little. I'll finish making the bracelets next year. xD

Tired...

2026, June 30

Due to some health issues, I'm not updating as much as I used to, but I still have plans and intend on fulfilling them. I just need some time to recover. Things have been very discouraging lately.

Every year at this time, I have some emotional crisis because half of the year is gone and I haven't achieved much with my life. I only see time disappearing and not any results.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm too delusional with my goals or if things have been tough for everybody somehow. Or if it's both at the same time, things are tough and I'm delusional.

2026, June 05

Our cat was discharged today, the feeding tube was removed, he's home and everything is fine. I'm not going to post a photo because even though he had a bath at the vet and came home smelling great, he's very dirty because of the spray they put on the stitches after removing the feeding tube. It doesn't even look like he had a bath; he looks like a stray cat. My mother questioned whether that dirt didn't come off even with the bath they gave him, and the doctor said it only comes off with time.

He seems fine, he's eating a lot, rubbing against everything and everyone, and he's dying to go out again, but we're keeping him indoors until he gets used to it again.

And the crisis continue...

2026, May 31

I've decided to remove the Esotericism section as well. I think there's only the Microblog, recipes, fanfiction, and original content now.

By the way, I overestimated my editing skills and haven't even finished the first chapter of the first story of the epic fantasy yet...

I discovered some spiritual things that I didn't like at all, and I'm kind of at odds with the spiritual world now.

Our cat has already gone back to eating dry food and it's certain that he'll have the feeding tube removed next week.

Another crisis...

2026, May 29

It's been a few years since I last had an anxiety attack, and now it's back... I suspect what the reason might be, but I won't go into details.

Anyway, I'm fed up with opinions, therefore, I decided to remove my blog from this site.

I'll keep the fanfics, the original works, and the microblog (as you can see), but I'm no longer interested in knowing anyone's opinion or expressing my own. My desire now is to lose myself in imaginary worlds. I'm very tired of real life.

At some point I'll post an epic fantasy story in Originals that I started writing in the Jurassic period and haven't finished yet. I'm making a Wiki for it and will expand it as I write the rest of the stories.

I planned to post everything I have at once, but I have so much to fix that I think I'll post one chapter at a time as I correct it.

Our cat has gone back to eating wet food and might have his feeding tube removed next week.

Cats and treefrogs

2026, May 20

Our cat had surgery on Monday and is doing well. He needed a titanium pin in his jaw and hasn't been able to close his mouth properly, but it could be edema or something like that from the blow. The second vet said it will pass, but it will take a while. He will need to have a feeding tube in his esophagus for 15 days.

Early this morning, a treefrog suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my room. I got startled because it fell to the floor with a "plop" sound, but there was no way to get in here. It was very strange. Unfortunately, I ended up killing the poor thing and felt bad about it, but I didn't know how to get it out of here. D:

It seems like it was some kind of premonition, because I had to go out today and got caught in a terrible downpour. I got home soaked to the skin because I don't have a f***** umbrella. It was quite scary because it was 9 am and it was completely dark, like nighttime. O_O

I ate so much ice cream that I burned the roof of my mouth. But I'm happy because I managed to buy tangerines.

It's tough.

2026, May 16

Our cat was hit by a motorcycle. One eye popped out and his jaw is broken. Mom found him early this morning; he'd been missing since yesterday. She rushed him to the vet. The doctor said he'll be blind in one eye and will need two surgeries (one to remove the eye and another to fix his jaw). He's hospitalized, sedated, and being fed through a tube.

Furthermore, a cat with kittens was abandoned right in front of my house. And two pregnant cats had also been abandoned. In total, we have 15 cats to neuter and find homes for...

We bought a camera and installed it on the gate along with a sign warning that animal abandonment is a crime and another warning about the camera.

To make matters worse, a shitty new neighbor moved in who has a pitbull.

Unmotivated

2026, May 15

I'm feeling a bit unmotivated/tired of creating content for the site, so I'm going to dedicate the next week to just translating things. Maybe the next two weeks will be all about translation.

Man, we're already halfway through May and soon half the year will be gone. D:

I went out to buy cheese balls at the market, and when I got home, there was no cheese, only pepperoni. It's true they didn't specifically say they were cheese balls, it just said "snacks," but the balls have always been cheese-filled.

I wanted ice cream, but the ice cream shop was closed.

Everything is so expensive... Even the smallest thing costs 10 reais...

Finally, I got it! *-*

2026, May 12

After two failed attempts, I succeeded on the third try!

My tarot deck by Nicoletta Ceccoli arrived today!

Now I have the oracle and the tarot!

I bought the pocket size because the regular size is way too big for my small hands. xD

I already covered them with the sleeves I had bought. But I had to adjust the size with my soldering iron because the sleeves were much larger than the cards. This soldering idea came from a YouTube tutorial [1]. It worked perfectly, and the best part is that the cards stay sealed. These Bucaneiros sleeves are really good. They'll last forever.

The annoying thing is that the deck gets thicker because of the air trapped inside, and since it's very slippery due to the plastic, it's a bit more difficult to shuffle, but I prefer that to losing my expensive tarot deck because of wear and tear.

My next acquisition, sometime in the possibly distant future, will be the Surrealist Tarot.

After that, it's going to be the Madhouse Tarot.

And then I'll finish my collection of surrealist tarot cards. <3

I wanted the Seventh Sphere Lenormand, but it's going to be difficult to pay 500 bucks for a deck. It's already going to be almost impossible to pay 1000 for the Madhouse Tarot... I'm just dreaming.

The Surrealist is roughly the same price as the Ceccoli Tarot, so it's still reasonably affordable.

If I manage to buy the Surrealist, I'll be happy enough to live without the Madhouse.

There's so much to do, and the day has only 24 hours...

2026, April 4

Until the middle of last year, I was depressed and had nothing to do with my life. Suddenly, now, I have a million things to do, and I don't even know how I got to this point. Because of this, I'm going to be absent from the site for a while to get all this done, which includes two more shrines for the site, one new page, and some freebies.

In addition, there are a lot of games I want to complete. The rest of the things are personal and professional.

Well, I'll leave my temporary goodbye here until I can sort all this out.

Shrines

2026, April 1

I'm creating some new shrines and their layout won't match the rest of the site, and honestly, I don't care.

I had a lot of fun creating the shrine for the Greek goddess Eris. I learned a lot about animation and lost my fear of tackling with that keyframe. *-*

I'm tired of worrying about thematic cohesion and "visual identity." It sounds a lot like corporate jargon.

Cones... Cones everywhere

2026, March 14

Today I knocked over a traffic cone in the street and didn't put it back. There was a construction going on, I was crossing the street, I went under the yellow tape, didn't duck down enough and knocked over the cone.

When I returned, next to the cone (which was already upright again) there was space to pass with no tape, but I don't remember if that space was there before or not. It was quite early when I went.

While I was at the market, I let an elderly person go ahead of me and put my shopping cart back in its place.

But two correct deeds don't correct one wrong deed.

I'll be thinking about this for months.

Now, every time I see the VLC icon, I will be triggered.

The VLC kart in Supertux Kart is also going to trigger me.

Cones will start appearing everywhere.

A cone factory is going to open near my house.

Cones will sprout from the ground.

Cones will be dropped from trees. conifers exist

It will rain cones.

I'll have nightmares about cones.

Mosquitos Inc.

2026, March 02

After all this rain, there are SO MANY mosquitoes here that they're almost carrying me away.

Tem hora que a gente se deixa levar

2026, 23 de Fevereiro

Passei um tempão pra conseguir escrever o capítulo 5 da fanfic de vtmb porque a linha do tempo estava toda bagunçada na minha cabeça e eu não sabia o que fazer naquele capítulo.

Tive uma idéia, escrevi alguns parágrafos.

Ontem e hoje, do nada, me veio uma enxurrada de idéia e o capítulo, que eu tô longe de terminar, já está com mais de 5000 palavras. O máximo que tinha chegado era 4500 palavras.

Queria deixar tudo certinho com mais ou menos a mesma quantidade de palavras, mas tem hora que não dá.

Além disso, consegui ter uma idéia razoável para ajeitar o microblog aqui. Não é a coisa mais maravilhosa do mundo não, mas eu estava odiando aquela caixa de details. e_e

Também não queria que ficasse igual rede social, então acho que consegui encontrar um meio termo. Agora só falta o blog, que eu tô pensando em fazer como postagem separada mesmo.

Ai, ai...

2026, 22 de Fevereiro

Eu não estou gostando de como meu microblog e blog estão com essas entradas encolhidas, mas não tenho mais idéia de como arrumar isso sem ser mais trocentas páginas de postagem.

Além disso, não tenho condições psicológicas de mudar nada na estrutura do site agora.

Meu deus...

2026, 21 de Fevereiro

Assisti a um filme chamado Vagina Dentada...

Eu não sei por que ando me torturando nos últimos dias, sério. Deve ser culpa por não estar cumprindo com minhas obrigações.

A perfeição da mostarda

2026, 08 de Fevereiro

Uma vez alguém disse que havia um motivo pras coisas caras terem o preço que elas têm.

Recentemente comprei uma mostarda na amazon que me custou uns 15 reais. Antes, eu só comprava aquelas mostardas de 3-4 reais no mercado.

Fiz uma salada pra mim e temperei com essa mostarda.

Colega. A experiência já começou no cheiro, que era maravilhoso! Um aroma perfumado que eu nunca tinha sentido na vida!

Quando provei, foi o melhor gosto do mundo! Totalmente diferente das mostardas vagabundas que só tem aquele gosto ácido/azedo de vinagre.

TOTALMENTE DIFERENTE!

FORAM OS 15 REAIS MAIS BEM GASTOS DA MINHA VIDA.

GASTOS NÃO. INVESTIDOS!

Foi essa gourmet, supreme, dick of the galaxies da Hellmann's:

Eu achei que seria a mesma coisa das de 3-4 reais, mas como eu estava enganada...

Agora que eu provei dessa mostarda, nunca mais vou conseguir comer as vagabundas. 😭😭😭

Hellmanns, me chama pra ser garota propaganda da sua mostada timelord. 😭 Aceito pagamento em mostarda. 😭

Quanto trabalho...

2026, 03 de Fevereiro

Eu queria mudar umas coisas no tema, só que eu tinha colocado o css todo na tag <style> em cada uma das páginas. Aí tive que refazer tudo colocando em um arquivo css separado e importando nas páginas.

Que trabalho, meu deus...

Mas agora entendo por que era pra ser separado. Pelo menos o trabalho que eu tô tendo agora de passar tudo pra uma folha de estilo vai ser uma vez só. Depois fica bem mais prático mudar tudo.

Ódio e indignação

2026, 02 de Fevereiro

Diante das horríveis notícias recentes, eu desisti totalmente de redes sociais. Sim, vou ficar só nesta bolha de Neocities/Nekoweb e foda-se quem não concorda com isso ou que acha que a gente tem que ficar vendo notícia "pra ter assunto". Se você é raso(a) assim é problema seu, você que resolva essa merda sozinho(a) e pare de empurrar esse caralho de estilo de vida pros outros.

O isolamento e a bolha são um direito de todos. Ninguém deveria ser forçado a socializar e a "estar antenado com as notícias". Pra puta que pariu vocês todos com essa merda. Cansei dessa cagação de regra. Já deu o que tinha que dar.

Para o restante: eu não vou xingar assim sempre. Este post é a exceção da regra.

Dependência Química

2026, 1° de Fevereiro

Aquele momento em que a pessoa está tão afundada no vício que aparece escrito "Tremembé" e ela lê "Tremere". 😂

Relógios antigos

2026, 15 de Janeiro

Deu 6h da manhã hoje e me veio à mente o badalar de um relógio antigo.

Quando eu era criança, os idosos ricos tinham esses relógios que badalavam às 6h da manhã e da tarde. Alguns poucos à meia-noite.

E me deu vontade de ter um relógio desses.

No mercado livre, um que é só de parede, custa 3k.

Imagina quanto deve custar um desses?

Dilatação do Espaço-Tempo e outros problemas

2026, 08 de Janeiro

Cara, eu não agüento mais. Toda hora é uma roupa pra lavar, uma casa pra varrer, uma comida pra fazer, um mercado pra ir, uma planta pra cuidar...

Cadê os robôs faz-tudo que nos prometeram??? Eu quero um liquidificador que limpa a casa, uma televisão que recebe entrega da shopee, uma batedeira que cuida do jardim, uma secadora que vai ao mercado, um ventilador que faz comida... Até agora só entregaram o robô aspirador e olhe lá! Nenhum robô querendo trabalhar. Até as IAs querem ser artista. Difícil viu?

Aí a pessoa quer se distrair um pouco, vai assistir a 1-3 vídeos no YouTube e entra num vórtex temporal do horizonte de eventos onde se passa 12 horas em 10 minutos e o dia já acabou e já tá na hora de dormir de novo.

Olha, eu nunca pensei que esta cidade fosse tão amaldiçoada. Pra ir aos mercados (que ficam do outro lado da cidade), eu tenho que subir um monte de morro, sendo que a cidade onde eu moro É UM VALE!!! Aí tá, você chega pra mim e diz:

"Pelo menos quando você voltar pra casa, cansada e carregando peso, você vai ter um monte de morro pra descer porque pra baixo todo santo ajuda, né?"

NÃÃÃÃÃÃÃÃÃÃÃOOOOOOOOO!!!

A GENTE ENTRA NUM PORTAL DE INCEPTION E TEM QUE SUBIR MAIS MORRO!

É O MESMO TRAJETO DE VOLTA!

COMO PODE UMA COISA DESSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSS???

Campanha Pela Proibição da Dilatação do Espaço-Tempo Já!

Cansaço

2026, 07 de Janeiro

Rapaz, tô dedicada mesmo. Varei a madrugada fazendo isso. Senhor do céu. e_e

Feliz e entusiasmada

2026, 06 de Janeiro

Comecei a fazer meu website indie! 🥰